Someone told me to kill myself twice today, I don't know why it's been bothering me

[maestroanth]

What the fuck is going on here? If you tell an insensitive joke, don't go around dripping your cunt complaining that some are insensitive about it. Jesus tits.

I don't have a problem with the joke, but I have a huge fucking problem with your infantile reaction to the expected criticism. Grow a pair.

And how does this post "Help him grow a pair"? If the OP is indeed genuine about this, being this exposed and honest about it is actually pretty brave......

[CapnAwesome]

Meh. It doesn't sound like a big deal to me. Maybe the internet is not the place for you.

[Red_Wind]

It's actually a pretty expected reaction. You're in your comfort zone and out of nowhere, someone tells you to die. It's different when you're in an environment where you expect petty people to insult you for petty reasons.

Nothing to do whether you have thick skin or not, give it a few days to mellow out.

[Goosebump]

I was in an lgbt chat room today, I decided to tell a stupid joke. Why did the french comedian not tell the same joke twice? He didn't want it to get snail. I forget the other one. I made these jokes up myself. So this person just says "kill yourself". I politely ask him if he would please not tell people to kill themselves, in more words than that, to which he replies "kill yourself". There wasn't many people in the chat, the moderator didn't ban this person but told them to shut the hell up and stop talking numerous times.

I don't know why, but this totally destroyed my mood for most of the afternoon. I don't even know this person, I've never talked to them before, I made one silly joke and all of a sudden they tell me to kill myself. I know that these are trolls, but it just makes me so depressed. The person just went on mocking and whatever in the chat room until he eventually left. I just think, what kind of world is this? What the hell is wrong with that person? 

I am no stranger to online environments, I've had my fair share of shit thrown my way, I know what to expect when I go and interact with strangers online. This though, this just really struck me on a deeper level as something that made me feel absolutely awful. To think that this uncaring, probably a child, person, just goes around saying this cruel shit, absolutely no care or remorse, I just think, what is wrong with this world? It has me so fricken upset, I don't even know how to describe why. 

I think in our world, we're often told that our feelings are no big deal. That we should just be stoic and repress whatever it is that's making us upset. There's so many things in this world that make me upset, to the point where I just feel like my mind is containing so many negative thoughts that I can't hold them all. It makes me depressed, it makes me feel like I just can't deal with all the thoughts inside my head sometimes. The center of my brain responsible for feeling happiness just turns off. I don't know what to do about this.

The world just seems like a very cold, dark place. I feel like I'm intelligent in that I'm sensitive, but I feel that my mind is very very vulnerable. I often feel that being acutely aware of what is going on around me, I just sense a lot that's wrong. I've often got comments that I'm very sensitive, it's embarrassing. I feel like I'm not taken seriously. I feel like I'm not given credit and I don't feel like I'm capable of a whole lot, that I'm not very intelligent. Because wouldn't an intelligent person learn how to get by? 

I know I just contradicted myself a lot there in that previous paragraph, but that's just where I'm at right now, I have no fucking idea what's going on inside my head and I just wanted to lay it out so that maybe someone can make sense of it. Hopefully I will be going to bed soon, it's about 10:47pm. Hopefully I'll wake up feeling better tomorrow. I'm sorry if this seems sort of bloggy.

I wouldn't try to make sense of that because I don't have letters in front of my name.

I can offer you a platitudes: The Buddhists say "Life is suffering."

I can offer you a "related" experience: I had the flue which led to a sinus infection which led to my being unbalanced physically and having headaches and I thought the car in the garage might be a suitable treatment.

But in the end... only you know the value of you. Anything I say is stupid and egotistical. I could say your awesome and great! But I dunno you. I'd just be doing it because a: I thought it was the right thing or b: I thought it would make me look good. or c: something I can't think of.

If I had to make an argument for "keep on keeping on" it would be this.



That's Syria.

[robvalue]

I'm sorry to hear that

I don't know how people can say such horrific things. They appear to get a false sense of confidence from the anonymity of hiding behind their screens. All you can do is ignore them, as their opinion is worth nothing.

[Alex K]

Meh. It doesn't sound like a big deal to me. Maybe the internet is not the place for you.

Considering how essential the internet is to modern life, that's a stupid thing to say. It's not like in the 21st century, the internet is still this special and obscure thing that a few freaks sometimes use for fun.

[Goosebump]

Meh. It doesn't sound like a big deal to me. Maybe the internet is not the place for you.

Considering how essential the internet is to modern life, that's a stupid thing to say. It's not like in the 21st century, the internet is still this special and obscure thing that a few freaks sometimes use for fun.

He painted with a broad brush but I think his point was "rub some dirt on it" or "grow some thicker skin". Most people are mean... most people are MEANER when they are behind animosity. Might be giving more credit then is due but how the hell would I know.

[Aoi Magi]

People, humans and pretty much any animal can be a douchebag and often are, sometimes even without realising it themselves. If you can't change the world, you'll have to adapt and learn to not care about these things.

You do not need to care about those who do not care about you.

[Little lunch]

Hey PP, you're sensitive. The best kind of human in my opinion.
People who are cunts on the Internet are exactly that in real life.
Usually they would hide this side of themselves, but here they can let their ugly, black hearts hang out.
They're a miserable bunch and they want to bring everyone else down with them.
I think Cato would be one. A miserable cunt that is.
Captain Awesome is just repeating something he heard before. Follower.
Don't change for them. I think you're right to feel the way you do. :-)

[Phosphorescent Panties]

What the fuck is going on here? If you tell an insensitive joke, don't go around dripping your cunt complaining that some are insensitive about it. Jesus tits.

I don't have a problem with the joke, but I have a huge fucking problem with your infantile reaction to the expected criticism. Grow a pair.

Dripping my cunt? Excuse me, that was sort of rude. I don't understand your outrage over the way I'm feeling. I just wanted to point out, the reason I made this thread was because I wasn't sure why this was making me feel the way I'm feeling. Don't you think that if I were somehow able to prevent feeling that way, I would have? It seemed to go beyond what I was prepared for and made me feel bad, your attitude is so condescending and so counter productive. What were you even thinking when you wrote this, honestly? You probably thought, wow this person is being pathetic, let me come and use my perfect intellect and rectify their situation. Please don't be this way. I also fail to see how my joke was insensitive.

It's actually a pretty expected reaction. You're in your comfort zone and out of nowhere, someone tells you to die. It's different when you're in an environment where you expect petty people to insult you for petty reasons.

Nothing to do whether you have thick skin or not, give it a few days to mellow out.

This reply makes the most sense to me, I believe this is what happens in general. When attacked in a place you think is safe, it starts to really hurt, but if you're somewhere where you're on guard, it doesn't really matter. Speaking in terms of verbal abuse.

I had a nice sleep last night and I feel better. Sometimes the day becomes too overwhelming, thoughts unravel when asleep.