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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 19, 2016 at 4:21 am
(September 18, 2016 at 10:20 pm)Mamacita Wrote: CIJS...
I wish I could, but I can't. I'm so sorry. It's too late for that. I'm looking after myself now. I want solid things. I want happiness. I don't want to have to try too hard. I want natural. I want realness. I want tangible companionship. A decade with you promises that I will always love you, just not the way you want me to. I've moved on. I have decided to walk away from anything that will make me stretch myself so hard that it transforms me into something I'm not. I'm walking away from anything that seems too unreal, or wistful. I'm stepping away from anything or anyone who will contribute to my loneliness. Ten years of loneliness is enough evidence that I can't go back. I really do hope you find happiness and that you, too, can stop stretching yourself to be someone that you are not. You deserve it. I just want to be happy. I know it's selfish. I don't care. What's wrong with being a little selfish sometimes? I've invested my life in pleasing others, fighting against storms to win their love, trying, hoping, waiting, just being there to make others happy. I don't want to do that anymore. At least not as the main dish. I want to relax and enjoy. I want to watch things unfold on their own with out having to climb mountains to earn it. If I end up empty handed, so be it. I'm not afraid of silence. I've learned that loneliness is worse than solitude. I'll keep my solitude and give you back that loneliness. I have no use for it anymore.
There's power in these words, ma'am. Climb your own mountains and view your own vistas. (((('Cita))))
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 19, 2016 at 7:46 am
CIJS...Well, this is a new low, even for you. And considering that my expectations of you are virtually non existent, that's quite the achievement. So what is it, this thing that is more important than your dead mother's wishes, and your grandkids financial and educational future? Half a racehorse you say. Well, kindly go fuck it, and yourself. We're done.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 19, 2016 at 7:43 pm
Be strong, UKA!
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 20, 2016 at 1:36 am
CIJS,
I need patience...
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 20, 2016 at 7:33 am
Can I say and I'm just being honest, I'm a lying twat.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 20, 2016 at 7:47 am
(September 20, 2016 at 7:33 am)Expired Wrote: Can I say and I'm just being honest, I'm a lying twat.
I don't believe you
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 20, 2016 at 7:50 am
(September 20, 2016 at 7:47 am)Losty Wrote: (September 20, 2016 at 7:33 am)Expired Wrote: Can I say and I'm just being honest, I'm a lying twat.
I don't believe you
Haha.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 20, 2016 at 8:54 am
(September 18, 2016 at 10:20 pm)Mamacita Wrote: CIJS...
I wish I could, but I can't. I'm so sorry. It's too late for that. I'm looking after myself now. I want solid things. I want happiness. I don't want to have to try too hard. I want natural. I want realness. I want tangible companionship. A decade with you promises that I will always love you, just not the way you want me to. I've moved on. I have decided to walk away from anything that will make me stretch myself so hard that it transforms me into something I'm not. I'm walking away from anything that seems too unreal, or wistful. I'm stepping away from anything or anyone who will contribute to my loneliness. Ten years of loneliness is enough evidence that I can't go back. I really do hope you find happiness and that you, too, can stop stretching yourself to be someone that you are not. You deserve it. I just want to be happy. I know it's selfish. I don't care. What's wrong with being a little selfish sometimes? I've invested my life in pleasing others, fighting against storms to win their love, trying, hoping, waiting, just being there to make others happy. I don't want to do that anymore. At least not as the main dish. I want to relax and enjoy. I want to watch things unfold on their own with out having to climb mountains to earn it. If I end up empty handed, so be it. I'm not afraid of silence. I've learned that loneliness is worse than solitude. I'll keep my solitude and give you back that loneliness. I have no use for it anymore.
Sum ergo sum
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 20, 2016 at 9:06 am
No hidden message here. I quit being VP of my group last night.
I've been losing friends over decisions I've made and I have no time on my hands, not to mention the gas money spent getting to meetings and things.
I guess this means I'll have more time to get back into painting and finally re-learning piano.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 20, 2016 at 9:07 am
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(September 20, 2016 at 9:06 am)thesummerqueen Wrote: No hidden message here. I quit being VP of my group last night.
I've been losing friends over decisions I've made and I have no time on my hands, not to mention the gas money spent getting to meetings and things.
I guess this means I'll have more time to get back into painting and finally re-learning piano.
What group?
Being a leader requires some sacrifices, though, that's true enough.
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