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RE: Substance Abuse Recovery Thread
November 13, 2016 at 7:44 am
(November 13, 2016 at 7:11 am)Gemini Wrote: (November 11, 2016 at 5:59 pm)mh.brewer Wrote: Be aware of the cult behavior in AA. There are those that will tempt you. And they disguise it well.
I've been to several groups this week, but my "home" group is an LGBT-friendly group which seems to be pretty free of that. Seems like a very liberal and intellectually mature group of people.
Anyway, this is day 9 without alcohol. Go me!
That's great. Keep stringing them together.
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RE: Substance Abuse Recovery Thread
November 13, 2016 at 7:45 am
Since age 11 to 22 I was riding the dragon. It was heroin and one might be sure if you are in a gutter grasping for air amidst one's own vomit, you still feel the king of the universe.
It was 2 years of recovery and altough I still sometimes feel urges to use in the form of dreams ending in nightmares.
I am going well now 14 years later.
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RE: Substance Abuse Recovery Thread
November 28, 2016 at 6:10 pm
2016 Surgeon General Report Alcohol, Drugs and Health. There is a lot of good material here. I'm still wading through it all.
https://addiction.surgeongeneral.gov/
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RE: Substance Abuse Recovery Thread
November 28, 2016 at 9:59 pm
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I'm pretty hedonistic and pleasure focused so I think if my heart never skipped beats when I drank and smoke and all the other stuff I'd probably still be doing a lot of that now so it's sort of a blessing in disguise that it does.
Nicotine is definitely the most monstrously difficult drug I've had to quit.
It took me a few tries but by the final try I really put psychotic effort into it.
I think that's the bottom line is that anyone who wants to do it enough can quit. Apart from in circumstances of extreme physical addiction the body won't die from a withdrawl so you just have to do whatever you can to physically not take the substance.
I used distractions, will power, forward planning. Like I used to think to myself even if a family member dies I'm not going to light up a cig to cope. Or if I get an injury or I've just had a bad day.
Twice I actually found full packets of cigs on the floor in the street at separate times while I was trying to quit. That was a fucking hurdle. I ended up just giving them away to some grateful smoker at work.
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RE: Substance Abuse Recovery Thread
November 28, 2016 at 10:56 pm
Yep -- dealing firmly with triggers is vital to recovery.
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RE: Substance Abuse Recovery Thread
November 29, 2016 at 12:02 am
Wow, had no idea any of you were dealing with addictions. I am so sorry for what yall are struggling with and am really rooting for each one of you. <3
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