Am I the only one who feels this way

[seylee]

I cannot take God anymore..feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I feel like I'm dealing with a judgmental and abusive entIty all the time.  I feel really isolated and I can't tell anyone what's going on...

[Succubus]

I cannot take God anymore..feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I feel like I'm dealing with a judgmental and abusive entIty all the time.  I feel really isolated and I can't tell anyone what's going on...

Well seylee you've made a start, you're telling people here.
Tell us a little more about your circumstances.

And welcome to the forums.

[ignoramus]

Matey, you created God in your mind and only you can dissolve him from your mind.
Like they say in the classics: It's all in your mind!!!

[Athene]

Sounds like it's time for a break-up.

[robvalue]

I cannot take God anymore..feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I feel like I'm dealing with a judgmental and abusive entIty all the time.  I feel really isolated and I can't tell anyone what's going on...

I’ve never been religious, but I do totally understand how you feel. I have another issue which isolates me, and which I can’t talk to hardly anyone about, ever.

Sadly, the way you’re feeling is one of the ways religion is meant to work. If you get someone to live in fear, to always think they’re not good enough, then you keep them coming back for the "cure" and "salvation".

I was lucky enough never to be indoctrinated into any religion, and from my point of view, they are all false. If there was an entity that created this reality, there’s no evidence that it is judging anyone, or in fact paying any attention to what’s happening here at all. Statistically, we would be of no consequence to it if you consider the massive scale of our reality. It’s the egocentrism of humans that has made us think we must be the primary motivation for the creation of our whole reality.

I’ve talked to a lot of people who are suffering in similar ways to you, and there’s various things that sometimes help. Maybe you can find the right one for you. Coming here and talking is a great first step. I encourage people to have a good shout at god, as silly as that may sound. Tell him you’re not going to put up with this anymore, that you are your own person, yell some abuse, and dare him to strike you down or throw down a mighty fireball. The complete lack of response that you receive has helped some people, as it is a step towards taking power back, and reinforcing how everything you "know" about god, including its existence, is based on stories. Put him to the test, and he'll fail every time.

I wish you the best and I encourage you to keep talking on here. I’m very sorry you can’t talk to those around you, like I said, I know how frustrating that is.

[Gawdzilla Sama]

I cannot take God anymore..feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I feel like I'm dealing with a judgmental and abusive entIty all the time.  I feel really isolated and I can't tell anyone what's going on...

[brewer]

Welcome Woof.

Tell god to stick it in his ass.

[BrianSoddingBoru4]

I cannot take God anymore..feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I feel like I'm dealing with a judgmental and abusive entIty all the time.  I feel really isolated and I can't tell anyone what's going on...

You grasp that you're not an atheist, right?

Boru

[Peebothuhlu]

At work.

I cannot take God anymore..feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I feel like I'm dealing with a judgmental and abusive entIty all the time.  I feel really isolated and I can't tell anyone what's going on...

[The Grand Nudger]

I cannot take God anymore..feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I feel like I'm dealing with a judgmental and abusive entIty all the time.  I feel really isolated and I can't tell anyone what's going on...

Welcome aboard.  

If gods exist and are as you fear, there's nothing you can do about that.  Not entirely unlike the asteroid almost certainly plummeting towards the earth right now.  Talking about whatever is going on might help...but, ultimately, you'll have to figure out how it is that you manage your day to day under threat of asteroid strike and employ that towards the threat of the divine.

The feeling you're describing, as a position, is called maltheism. Knowing that might help you find info on how others who've felt like you do dealt with it. The notion is as old as gods themselves. No, you're not the only person to have felt that way. Most religions incorporate some form of maltheism, themselves, by asserting a divine adversarial other.