NEW HERE HAVING CRISIS

[nottheone]

So just to make things short. Grew up catholic. converted atheist in middle school. went back to christianity at 18. now an atheist at 22. I made some promises to god while I was a believer and im afraid even though I do not believe a god exists im afraid he is going to do something about these promises and guide me in this direction regardless and its giving me a ton of anxiety. could anyone help further re instate the lack of existence of the Old Testament deity.

It isn't impossible for people to switch positions, but this post comes across as trolling,
I am not trolling literally just left the gym because my heart felt like it was beating too hard due to the anxiety I have

[Brian37]

It isn't impossible for people to switch positions, but this post comes across as trolling,
I am not trolling literally just left the gym because my heart felt like it was beating too hard due to the anxiety I have

Why does anxiety have to default to superstition? Believe me, I have A D D, an have a lifetime of anxiety.

[vulcanlogician]

It's not just superstition, Brian. There are a host of social pressures and other difficulties which may complicate deconversion.

[nottheone]

Why does anxiety have to default to superstition? Believe me, I have A D D, an have a lifetime of anxiety.

im not saying my anxiety is because of some superstitious thing im saying im anxious due to my superstitious BELIEFS

[vulcanlogician]

Brian's point was anxiety doesn't need to resolve itself with belief in something. And he's right about that. But the trolling accusation seems paranoid.

It's paranoia that I understand, however. Thar be trolls round these parts.

[Peebothuhlu]

Hello.

[nottheone]

Hello.

whatsup

[nottheone]

UPDATE: just came across a verse in Deuteronomy that tells rape victims that they have to get married to their rapists, anxiety going down...

[zwanzig]

Welcome! One thing that helped my residual anxiety about things I didn't want to believe in anymore was researching the character of god as an immoral entity. Like you figured out with his prescription for rape victims; even if he happened to be real and I had promised him something, he is an evil entity. I don't have to honour anything I've said to it and i fact, to stay true to what is right in my heart, I probably shouldn't. He's not someone worth worship or respect and I would rather go to "hell" than to give in to a bully who would hide and still expect me to blindly follow them.

It helps in those moments of backsliding when the anxiety brings those irrational "what if..." Thoughts to think of the promises and sacrifices god has done as things actually describing a demonic entity who is manipulating me for some unknown purpose. That whole blood magic sacrifice of Christ? That's something more in line with an evil being in a story book, making contracts in death and blood that get fulfilled in the afterlife. I have often thought about the necessity for me to "accept Christ" as possibly signing some sort of contract where this hungry demonic entity has underhandedly gotten access to my soul in the afterlife by my agreement because it needs its slaves to sign the "document" willingly, so, does so through guilt and fear( which is an evil way to get people on board with your plan).

Then as the anxiety dies down, I researched logical arguments against the existence of god, weakening the returning thoughts that "what if..."

[Gwaithmir]

UPDATE: just came across a verse in Deuteronomy that tells rape victims that they have to get married to their rapists, anxiety going down...

“Properly read, the Bible is the most potent force for atheism ever conceived.” (Isaac Asimov)