No, I mean how are you doing? Is it working for you this time around? Do you feel any better?

I was joking, but I think he meant he was feeling a 48 on a scale of 100.

CD, how many bills do you take a day ?


"You fooled 'em, Chief!"-McMurphy

(January 4, 2016 at 7:26 pm)Kitan Wrote: I was joking, but I think he meant he was feeling a 48 on a scale of 100.

I don't think so.

Do you find group therapy, helpful? I've always thought about group therapy, what it might be like, and would it be hard to open up to others? But, then it might be helpful and comforting to know I wasn't alone in my thoughts. Idk.

((hugs)) I hope things get better for you.

Best Wishes CD.

You must be a good example of even the most intelligent having coping issues.

I hope you are valuing yourself highly, you are an important part of the user experience on this forum. I'm glad you can stay up to date with us as you are stabilizing. As you can tell from this posts response, you are not only not alone, you're not even very unusual for having a little visit there.

I have a step daughter and a niece and a nephew who have spent many a moon in those places, but on the good side, it always helps and a better successful day comes, as I'm sure it will with you.

Take care,

Brakeman

(January 4, 2016 at 7:23 pm)Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote:

(January 4, 2016 at 7:19 pm)excitedpenguin Wrote: How are you, CD?

48

Clearly, I misread that. Thanks for asking. I'm doing OK.

(January 4, 2016 at 7:00 pm)Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote: Oh bloody hell, we have a new guy. He's trying to baptize me.

For Christ sake let him do it.

(January 4, 2016 at 7:27 pm)Marsellus Wallace Wrote: CD, how many bills do you take a day ?  

Pills? Hmmm... Not too many. 20mg of ziprasidone twice daily, 50mg of lamotrigine once daily (titrating up to what will probably be 300mg), 0.5mg of cloneazepam twice daily, 0.5mg of lorazepam every 4 hours as needed, 50mg of tramadol every 6 hours as needed, 15mg of temazepam at bedtime as needed.

Hmm, I guess that is kind of a lot. It's spread out throughout the day so seems like less. It's a lot fewer than I took four years ago when I went off meds.

It will probably be a lot more when I see a primary care provider for the first time in four years on Thursday. I've been ignoring some health issues.

CD (if you don't mind answering these questions), what are they doing for you in the hospital that you think actually helps you?

I'm curious because my life has been so dark and unstable from chronic depression that I can't believe hospitalization has never been recommended for me. I tend to overthink everything and fall down disgusted from it, and my recovery periods are only getting shorter. Being too intelligent (if I don't say so myself) to believe dying is any better, and being studied at the art of fooling most of the world with my shit-eating grin, my therapy sessions have benefited my therapists far more than myself (they get paid to be entertained), therefore I resolved to keep cash for them in my pocket. I am now wondering if hospitalization is my only option now, and then I truly wonder if it's an option at all after several prescription drugs proved to be either dangerous allergens or ineffective at maximum dosage. I guess what I wonder is what they (hospitals) actually can help anyone with, but also what problems make it worth volunteering to risk being kept in an unhealthy environment (indoors, no fresh air, people who are so depressing you're liable to grow a death wish when you weren't suicidal going in).  Are they really in the business of helping the patient, and if so, how do they really do this when their invariable actions are about protecting society from the patient? So far, I'm leaning toward the notion that hospitalization is good for some mental health problems, but it could be really bad for some.