I was in an lgbt chat room today, I decided to tell a stupid joke. Why did the french comedian not tell the same joke twice? He didn't want it to get snail. I forget the other one. I made these jokes up myself. So this person just says "kill yourself". I politely ask him if he would please not tell people to kill themselves, in more words than that, to which he replies "kill yourself". There wasn't many people in the chat, the moderator didn't ban this person but told them to shut the hell up and stop talking numerous times.

I don't know why, but this totally destroyed my mood for most of the afternoon. I don't even know this person, I've never talked to them before, I made one silly joke and all of a sudden they tell me to kill myself. I know that these are trolls, but it just makes me so depressed. The person just went on mocking and whatever in the chat room until he eventually left. I just think, what kind of world is this? What the hell is wrong with that person? 

I am no stranger to online environments, I've had my fair share of shit thrown my way, I know what to expect when I go and interact with strangers online. This though, this just really struck me on a deeper level as something that made me feel absolutely awful. To think that this uncaring, probably a child, person, just goes around saying this cruel shit, absolutely no care or remorse, I just think, what is wrong with this world? It has me so fricken upset, I don't even know how to describe why. 

I think in our world, we're often told that our feelings are no big deal. That we should just be stoic and repress whatever it is that's making us upset. There's so many things in this world that make me upset, to the point where I just feel like my mind is containing so many negative thoughts that I can't hold them all. It makes me depressed, it makes me feel like I just can't deal with all the thoughts inside my head sometimes. The center of my brain responsible for feeling happiness just turns off. I don't know what to do about this.

The world just seems like a very cold, dark place. I feel like I'm intelligent in that I'm sensitive, but I feel that my mind is very very vulnerable. I often feel that being acutely aware of what is going on around me, I just sense a lot that's wrong. I've often got comments that I'm very sensitive, it's embarrassing. I feel like I'm not taken seriously. I feel like I'm not given credit and I don't feel like I'm capable of a whole lot, that I'm not very intelligent. Because wouldn't an intelligent person learn how to get by? 

I know I just contradicted myself a lot there in that previous paragraph, but that's just where I'm at right now, I have no fucking idea what's going on inside my head and I just wanted to lay it out so that maybe someone can make sense of it. Hopefully I will be going to bed soon, it's about 10:47pm. Hopefully I'll wake up feeling better tomorrow. I'm sorry if this seems sort of bloggy.

Some people are pieces of shit.

Don't let them get to you.

Sometimes humans suck. Sorry it ruined your day. 

Hug*

Matey, learn to not give a fuck better.
Better for you in the long run.

I struggle to take my wife seriously after 30 years, you think I'm gonna batter an eyelid over an internet stranger?

Maybe being that way is my defence mechanism because deep down, it affect me also?
We all cope in our own special ways emotionally.

And if you want to deal with the problem directly, identify the person, go to their house and talk it out...


...I mean plant an axe in their face.

To sum it up people can be plain assholes on the internet just saying. You can be the nicest person ever
but when you are on the internet you can be a complete piece of shit to anyone. Don't let it bother you
honestly it's not worth getting upset over.

What the fuck is going on here? If you tell an insensitive joke, don't go around dripping your cunt complaining that some are insensitive about it. Jesus tits.

I don't have a problem with the joke, but I have a huge fucking problem with your infantile reaction to the expected criticism. Grow a pair.

PP, I'm afraid you need to grow thicker skin. The bottom line is that YOU are in charge of your own mind, you're own feelings. It needs to be that way. If your happiness can be dictated by others, you are screwed. It's natural to feel some disappointment when other people don't like you or (more likely) don't like you at a specific moment (just because your joke sucked), you need to put it in perspective.

You recently posted about anti LGBT laws in US states so I'll assume you are American. Let's look at US Presidential election history. I believe the most lopsided election in terms of popular vote was the 1964 election between Lyndon Johnson and Barry Goldwater. Johnson got 61.1% while Goldwater got 38.5%. That's the biggest popular vote margin in history. Yet Goldwater got more than 1 out 3 people's vote. Stop and think about that. Even the guy who won the highest percentage of popular votes in history won less than 2 out of 3 people's vote.

The moral of the story here is that you cannot possibly please everybody. Even if you are extremely popular, you will still not be liked by at LEAST a third of the population - at least in specific ways. If you go through life dependent on everybody approving of you, you're in for a rough ride - because NOBODY gets that. Do your best to get approval from YOU. Be open to constructive criticism from others because that can help you improve yourself but don't give dickweeds the time of day. Any asshole can spout hatred at you because they disagree with what you said or are just assholes in general. It should not influence how you feel about yourself. Stand proud.

(April 8, 2016 at 12:58 am)The Valkyrie Wrote: And if you want to deal with the problem directly, identify the person, go to their house and talk it out...


...I mean plant an axe in their face.

Jeezus Valkyri, you really want to make life difficult for your ER colleagues, don't you?

I don't think that one would be "difficult" at all.  D-O-A... wheel in the next one.