(August 23, 2016 at 1:21 am)Maelstrom Wrote:

(August 23, 2016 at 1:18 am)Nymphadora Wrote: I'm 45. It was located in Maryland.

You grew up during a time when smoking was still considered cool.  It makes sense, through no fault of your own, that you would follow the cool crowd.

For me though, it was parental and familial influence. I didn't have many friends and was always the kid that was picked on in school. I was by no means "cool". I was that introverted kid who was always the newcomer because my mother kept moving us around all the time. I think it was my way of rebelling and doing something I knew they couldn't control because, I did it when no one was around or I'd leave the house and walk the dog in the woods and have a few cigarettes while we were out.

The only reason I got caught is because right after my mother had left for work, I lit up a cig in the house. I didn't realize that she had come back because she forgot her sweater. When she came in, she smelled it and of course, I was the only one there, so yeah... I got caught red handed. Had I stepped out in the back yard, I probably could have gotten away with it.

I was born in 79. My parents smoked, my grandparents smoked, my sister and I were the only two who never touched a cigarette.

(August 23, 2016 at 1:23 am)The Valkyrie Wrote: No, you don't have to feed hi.  But, if you do, once a day.  And bread and water is fine.

Awesome....I'll exchange him for that list of mine.... then you can start your spree

Heck, I might even buy you a new scalpel to celebrate the occasion!

You'd better not be hiding any in the freezer, behind unpopular frozen entrees.

I'll be checking.

(August 23, 2016 at 1:28 am)Maelstrom Wrote: I was born in 79.  My parents smoked, my grandparents smoked, my sister and I were the only two who never touched a cigarette.

Lucky. I wish I had never started smoking. I hate that I need the nicotine so badly. Gonna put that patch on now, as I'm heading off to bed now.

I believe in you, Nymp. I know you can succeed and do what is best for you.

(August 23, 2016 at 1:10 am)Nymphadora Wrote:

(August 23, 2016 at 12:55 am)Excited Penguin Wrote: Yeah, I would be smoking two packs a day too, if I didn't have any restraint. In fact I used to, it was the only way cigarettes could satisfy me at one point. And the stronger the tobacco, the better.

I'm glad I got down to at least one pack a day since then, though. And I hope it works this time too.

Admittedly, I started smoking when I was ten years old. My mother owned a deli and sold smokes there. After school, I would sneak a pack of cigs, go out back, walk down the hill and light up. She was a smoker as was most of the adults around me or in my family so they never really smelled the cigarette smoke on me, per say, because it was also on them. I didn't get caught until I was 13. I got in plenty of trouble for that, but it didn't stop me. Look at the influences I had. I think if I quit now, the chances of my own kids not wanting to start will be better. I've always gone outside to smoke, even in the winter. I've tried to be courteous and not smoke around them but if I'm outside, they're going to see me smoking.

I can honestly say that at least I did not smoke while I was pregnant. But I'm not interested in trying to quit that way lol.

I started as a minor too. Must be 5 years now, if I'm not mistaken.

Well, my main reason for quitting would be that it completely changes my whole personality(and not in a good way). I know that doesn't make any sense, but it's true.

Let me put it like this. They say smoking makes you cool. It's exactly the opposite for me. It's such an addiction for me that it makes me into this needy, unbalanced, insecure, irrational, angry, butthurt type person who isn't capable of feeling anything and at the same time overreacts to a lot of things as if he cared a little too much. And that's just not who I am deep down inside.

(August 23, 2016 at 1:30 am)Nymphadora Wrote:

(August 23, 2016 at 1:28 am)Maelstrom Wrote: I was born in 79.  My parents smoked, my grandparents smoked, my sister and I were the only two who never touched a cigarette.

Lucky. I wish I had never started smoking. I hate that I need the nicotine so badly. Gonna put that patch on now, as I'm heading off to bed now.

I heard somewhere that nicotine patches can give you crazy dreams if you sleep with them on. I have no idea if that's true at all because I never cared to fact check, but please fill us in on any details if that happens.

(August 23, 2016 at 2:23 am)Excited Penguin Wrote: Well, my main reason for quitting would be that it completely changes my whole personality(and not in a good way). I know that doesn't make any sense, but it's true.

Let me put it like this. They say smoking makes you cool. It's exactly the opposite for me. It's such an addiction for me that it makes me into this needy, unbalanced, insecure, irrational, angry, butthurt type person who isn't capable of feeling anything and at the same time overreacts to a lot of things as if he did a little too much. And that's just not who I am deep down inside.

Oh, that's mostly online. IRL it makes me oscillate between tyrannical and pathetic.