CIJS,
It's been almost six years since you left me.
I think the pain, anger and blaming each other is behind us.
We are so lucky to have such a beautiful daughter and I think you're a good mum.
I don't want to say it out loud yet just in case something goes wrong, but I think we might have become friends again.
I think we've both made a huge effort and it's really paying off.

CIJSAIJBH...
You're the best friend I could ever hope for. I don't think I'm understood by the world I live in. Maybe I'm not very relatable, or all my fuck ups make me very confusing. I realize I need to fix so many things about me, but when we talk, it all makes sense. You help me feel like I'm a person. You respect me. My opinion matters. You validate my thoughts. I keep drowning in muddy questions, but when we talk, it all seems so simple. Thank you, my best friend. I love you so much. It's an ugly time in my life, but you're not going anywhere. I laughed so hard today, I cried. I woke up miserable, but talking with you made a world of difference. Thank you soooooooooooo much!!!!

(August 28, 2016 at 2:26 pm)Mamacita Wrote: CIJSAIJBH...
You're the best friend I could ever hope for. I don't think I'm understood by the world I live in. Maybe I'm not very relatable, or all my fuck ups make me very confusing. I realize I need to fix so many things about me, but when we talk, it all makes sense. You help me feel like I'm a person. You respect me. My opinion matters. You validate my thoughts. I keep drowning in muddy questions, but when we talk, it all seems so simple. Thank you, my best friend. I love you so much. It's an ugly time in my life, but you're not going anywhere. I laughed so hard today, I cried. I woke up miserable, but talking with you made a world of difference. Thank you soooooooooooo much!!!!  

I love you too Ivy, I'm emotional and happy Thank you so so much

I don't think you're confusing at all, not one bit. I think you're sincere, honest and open. It seems to me it must be other people that have the problem.

You're so kind and you care about everyone's feelings, especially mine. You're the most fantastic friend I could ever hope for, and it's so good to see you laughing and feeling positive!

You're right, I'm not going anywhere, nu-uh. Not for anyone. Besties for life

CIJS fuck the police. And by police I mean medical people with ice and shit. I don't like those guys. Vampires to. Fuck them.

Can I just say, I'm still positively cackling over what you thought was going on with me, Rob.

I'm glad my simple minded antics are of some amusement

(August 28, 2016 at 3:21 pm)robvalue Wrote: I'm glad my simple minded antics are of some amusement

Ditto: I'm not smart enough to be that kind of guy even if I wanted to be.

CIJS;

I feel like such an annoyance, constantly. I know with most people it just isn't like that at all, but at the same time, my brain just tells me i should stay quiet, and not do anything, otherwise i'm just going to annoy people until eventually i have nobody who wants to be around me. And it sucks to feel like this. Hell. Even making this post feels like i'm just gonna annoy the readers. I hate this.

I'm sorry if i annoy any of you, and i'm also sorry because i do know how attention seeking i sound, and that i moan all the time.

(August 28, 2016 at 3:32 pm)Jello Wrote: CIJS;

I feel like such an annoyance, constantly. I know with most people it just isn't like that at all, but at the same time, my brain just tells me i should stay quiet, and not do anything, otherwise i'm just going to annoy people until eventually i have nobody who wants to be around me. And it sucks to feel like this. Hell. Even making this post feels like i'm just gonna annoy the readers. I hate this.

I'm sorry if i annoy any of you, and i'm also sorry because i do know how attention seeking i sound, and that i moan all the time.

safe to say you're wrong. I find it fun and enjoyable to talk to you, you're the opposite of annoying. If you feel this is taking a toll on you, you should seek someone to talk to if it helps, you can also pm me anytime.

I echo the above sentiments

There are a whole lot of annoying people on this forum. You are certainly not one of them! Not once have you annoyed me. I do know what it's like to continually doubt yourself though. If this is a persistent problem, you could consider seeking some therapy from your doctor.

You're always welcome to PM me too.