Nothing much but severe severe depression, I feel so sad.
It's fine, I feel like this frequently, I don't know what to blame more: my Multiple Sclerosis or the medications or life or myself. Or maybe a collaboration between all of these?

But it's the morning now, and I need to lift myself up, what have I become? I wasn't like this before, it's like a big foggy smoke covering your head; you don't know what is making things worse: the routine or something else?

For the routine, it's just a killer. You repeat and rewind, over and over and over.
The "something else" is you, seeing your dreams evaporate one by one. Just like mirage.

This is the cycle of depression as they say: you keep rotating in the same spot over and over, maybe that's where the routine is coming from: it's coming from inside your head. So you put your headphones on and play something like this:



I believe that a ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.
You just close your eyes and listen. The day will pass, and tomorrow will hopefully come.

Just keep closing your eyes, and picture yourself flying. You're seeing the desert from above, with people so engulfed in their boring routines but you are up there in the clouds; smelling the cold breeze passing through your own soul.

You will get over this. Believe me.

(June 13, 2018 at 3:07 am)AtlasS33 Wrote: Nothing much but severe severe depression, I feel so sad.
It's fine, I feel like this frequently, I don't know what to blame more: my Multiple Sclerosis or the medications or life or myself. Or maybe a collaboration between all of these?

But it's the morning now, and I need to lift myself up, what have I become? I wasn't like this before, it's like a big foggy smoke covering your head; you don't know what is making things worse: the routine or something else?

For the routine, it's just a killer. You repeat and rewind, over and over and over.
The "something else" is you, seeing your dreams evaporate one by one. Just like mirage.

This is the cycle of depression as they say: you keep rotating in the same spot over and over, maybe that's where the routine is coming from: it's coming from inside your head. So you put your headphones on and play something like this:



I believe that a ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.
You just close your eyes and listen. The day will pass, and tomorrow will hopefully come.

Just keep closing your eyes, and picture yourself flying. You're seeing the desert from above, with people so engulfed in their boring routines but you are up there in the clouds; smelling the cold breeze passing through your own soul.

You will get over this. Believe me.

Hey ... don't give up you're not alone ... I'm here for you too, get up, look in the mirror and smile! Smile for me ... just like that   , i love your smile... isn't it better, isn't the sun shining outside today for you too ...?!
Never give up, never!!! You're not alone, look around ..we're here

and this is for you :


btw i like tyour song very much and here is something for fun...

Hey Kitty !
I smiled for the laptop's cam : The mirror is kinda far, that's why -_-

The song "Home" is awesome, it really cheered me up. I would prefer it over "Foster the People"'s jamming. Even though FP's song has a kick ass guitar work at 2:51. It gets really really good after that

You did make my morning with this comment, Kitty, thank you so much ^_^ you're a good person with a good taste in music -introduce me to guitar solos, and you're my friend -

(June 14, 2018 at 2:39 am)AtlasS33 Wrote: Hey Kitty !
I smiled for the laptop's cam : The mirror is kinda far, that's why -_-

The song "Home" is awesome, it really cheered me up. I would prefer it over "Foster the People"'s jamming. Even though FP's song has a kick ass guitar work at 2:51. It gets really really good after that

You did make my morning with this comment, Kitty, thank you so much ^_^ you're a good person with a good taste in music -introduce me to guitar solos, and you're my friend -

I'm very happy that I could improve your mood, remember that you can always count on me ... whenever, you feel bad or just sad throw a thread to me .. write PM or anything..i'm here... and you're my friend too  
we can exchange songs if you want  

You opened Pandora's box, I will spam you with songs  

hehe  ... it's ok, I'm sure we'll have fun and it will also be an excuse to talk if we feel the need for the presence of another person around, isn't it?

6/20/2018
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So the depression level got a little bit down.
The temperature outside is about 43 C , so it's very very hot, but I got used to it. Natives of this land and people who lived here long enough know how to handle these temperatures: you just stay inside in an AC most of the day or when you out you make sure that there's an AC around so you don't get boiled up alive- take 2 or 3 showers through the day-drink lots of fluids- cover your head from the sun because it might literally "touch you".

Sadly I had to go outside today to get me an Iced Coffee from the supermarket next door, if somebody asked me to give a reason for depression, I would point directly at the weather as a factor.

So, I think I'll go drink something cold

It's very nice to hear    ... that the level of your depression has decreased and I hope that every day falls lower and lower ... no one should have depression.. no one!
But wait ... this temperature is some 43 degrees Celsius?? ... that's a nightmare!!! Now, here ..I have 30 degrees and above  and I barely function...

(June 21, 2018 at 5:56 am)KittyAnn Wrote: It's very nice to hear    ... that the level of your depression has decreased and I hope that every day falls lower and lower ... no one should have depression.. no one!
But wait ... this temperature is some 43 degrees Celsius?? ... that's a nightmare!!! Now, here ..I have 30 degrees and above  and I barely function...

I wish if it stayed the same, 5 minutes ago I was very depressed.
Estimated 44 C today xD, you can cook eggs in the street.