PROFANITY ALERT. I'm not here to offend christians.. I'm here to see life right.

When I did a prayer to accept jebus, with some christian dudes, I heard a voice in my ear talk all this religious jibber-jabber right at that very moment. First voice, ever. And I wasn't diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder at that time. The timing was very, very terrible. Who wouldn't believe? Right that second I heard a voice for the first time ever? I still get a little skeptical about my athiest conversion, since the timing just seems so terrible. It's like some "god" was fucking with me, or something. I pretty much brainwashed myself and got really into the thought of everything being evil and terrible. I still have habits.. like when I check out chicks.. OH DON'T LOOK THERE!... oh, his name in vein!..etc. Really, feel sorry for me. You don't think, when it happens at that moment, that you're schizophrenic. Oh, I'm just schizophrenic, moving on. Especially when you knew jackshit about voices or people ill with it. It was so fucking terrible.

FEEL MY DAMN PAIN. All you fellow anti-christs would have believed, too. You know what still scares me? I've never again had a silent voice outside my head. I've heard audible things outside my head. I've never ..again.. had silent voices outside of my head. It was like right outside my ear. Is christianity real? ahhhh..lol and all my episodes are christan-related. Like having billy graham's voice yell at me, audibly, inside my head.. so much more. Like walls talking to me telling me my family will get saved if I get baptized.. my life sucks; what a fuck show. I know you don't know what I mean by silent voices.. but I hope you somewhat understand. The brain voices? I don't know how to describe them. My brain is pooched. Feel pity on me.. unlike sane converted jesus freaks, I deserve it. What were you non-schizophrenics really thinking? There done editing. May science be with you.

That was rather insightful...
best of luck.

The fuck did I just read.

I'm sorry if it isn't put together great.. it's my illness, I can't keep thoughts in-line. it's a clusterfuck in there. but really, i'm not lying at all. if anything, i've left shit out.

(March 10, 2014 at 1:26 am)heathendegenerate Wrote: I'm sorry if it isn't put together great.. it's my illness, I can't keep thoughts in-line. it's a clusterfuck in there. but really, i'm not lying at all. if anything, i've left shit out.

Don't worry about it, if you can't help it, it's not your fault. Maybe just take a little bit more time, it just seems like what you wrote was filled with excitement and emotion.

Nothing wrong with that.

What a whining, whinging douche! Waa, Waa, it's all the Christian's fault, waa!

(March 10, 2014 at 3:40 am)Aractus Wrote: What a whining, whinging douche! Waa, Waa, it's all the Christian's fault, waa!

C'mon Aractus, that's not fair.

The truth is that some of the things people perceive to happen during a religious experience mirror things people experience during a schizophrenic episode. Whilst we may debate whether there is in fact a difference between the two, there is no doubt that if a significant symptom is mistaken for a religious experience it can delay diagnosis and treatment.

My read of the op (and it is a bit jumbled so I could be wrong) is that he's not blaming Christianity for his illness, just that because of Christianity his illness was not recognised.

Not unreasonable.

Perhaps you won't need to cut off your cock and staple it to your forhead afterall, Napo.

Oh - what was that on his forehead then??

(March 10, 2014 at 3:40 am)Aractus Wrote: What a whining, whinging douche!

(Cut down by me)