Opening up about being mentally ill

[Faith No More]

Not sure if this is what you wanted this thread to become, Chris, but here is my contribution.

Quite frankly, I didn't know what was going to happen to this thread, but I've been pleasantly surprised by the contributions. I really didn't expect anyone else to post themselves, too.

[robvalue]

Thank you to everyone who has shared their experiences. This thread was a really good idea. It's been interesting reading your stories, and I can relate to a lot of it. I'm very sorry for what you've all gone through. You're still here, and that is an achievement in itself. I know all too well. It would have been the easiest thing in the world to have offed myself any time in the last 8 years.

I'm at a point where my mental state is better than it has been throughout this period, I tentatively describe my life as "bearable". I've been at hell's gate, and I've come back to the point of some sort of sanity. I never thought I would. So it can be done.

I'm here to offer my support to all of you, feel free to message me with absolutely anything. Nothing's going to shock me regarding the kind of thoughts that go through our heads.

I try my absolutely fucking hardest to be positive, I always have, even when I was at my worst. And the thing that pissed me off the most was people, even some mental health professionals, saying "well you don't look depressed". Holding it against me that I'm making an effort when all I wanted to do was crumple up in the corner and die.

[Thumpalumpacus]

You've no right to complain that people aren't being real when you treat people who display vulnerabilities this way.

To be fair, I think the bigger insult is that he assumed that I don't take my recovery seriously, all based on one, short journal entry I chose to share.

I sure as fuck wouldn't be alive if I didn't take this shit seriously.

I completely agree. I had thumbed something out about that too, but thought ill of speaking for you when you're here in the thread, so I backspaced over it.

[Excited Penguin]

I just expressed myself poorly. I didn't mean it that way, that's all I'll say.

[Brakeman]

I try my absolutely fucking hardest to be positive, I always have, even when I was at my worst.

How does one "try to be positive?"  Isn't that like trying to believe in jebus?

[Brian37]

I have never been diagnosed as an adult, but I know I have depression and anxiety issues because it runs in my biological family with my brother and two sisters and biological mother. It didn't help growing up adopted with two well intended but authoritarian teacher parents, who sold me boys dont cry, children should be seen not heard, being sensitive on a street full of nothing but male bullies. I didn't have my first long time friend until high school, but even then I was bullied by others. I have trust issues even today.

I had an almost 3 month period of a hording documentary house living by myself. I hate the idiots who think because your limbs work that you don't have disabilities and say stupid things like "what's wrong with you" and "it's your fault" and "its all in your head" and "just do it" and "get over it".

It gets really bad for me when my mom has health issues and is in the hospital for an operation. And even now that she is stable and healthy besides mobility issues, I still second guess myself as when to step in and step aside.

Mental illness isn't just the guy screaming on the street corner that he is Napoleon who knows 9/11 is an inside job.

[Losty]

I have only ever wanted to rip someone's face off once in my life. It was when some asshole told my son to suck it up because boys don't cry.

[Brakeman]

I have only ever wanted to rip someone's face off once in my life. It was when some asshole told my son to suck it up because boys don't cry.

I'd be pissed too! The phrase is real MEN don't cry!





Ha Ha .. jk  what good is any person without emotion?

[Excited Penguin]

I have only ever wanted to rip someone's face off once in my life. It was when some asshole told my son to suck it up because boys don't cry.

Adults can cry for silly reasons sometimes, but men do cry sometimes. It's part of the human experience.

[Thumpalumpacus]

I try my absolutely fucking hardest to be positive, I always have, even when I was at my worst.

How does one "try to be positive?"  Isn't that like trying to believe in jebus?

No. Unlike deities, there is plenty of evidence that positive things can and do happen.