Selling your soul.

[brewer]

OK, kind of sad, kind of sick. I'm hoping that you were young. jesus had to have a go between. Who brokered the deal?

Yeah, kind of sad, but I try to be honest about it. But, hey, there are people that actually get the logic stuffed in their face on here, and remain christians their whole life, so I'm not a worst case scenario candidate, by far, in the sad department. I probably was in my mid-teens when I did that childish soul selling haha, and almost nearly fell out of it entirely, on my own, by the age of 12, because there was critical thought going on there, but fear got to me. I drifted mostly away from it in my late teens and early 20’s, because that critical thought kicked in again, but the heavy indoctrination was still in the back of my brain. I thought of all the different religions out there, and I thought that a god couldn’t send people to hell, because they were raised in a different religion. The thing that got me back into the catholic faith was the Fatima story. I didn’t question it, like I should have, and was devout for a few years after that. I was living a contradiction.. I was thinking that god wouldn’t send people to hell, but at the same time I believed the mary messages of all these people that were going to hell.

I feel I was an intelligent and open-minded, but lacked the amount of skepticism needed to lose the faith. But, now, I have all three of those. Although, I know I’m easily in the bottom 50% on the intelligence meter, on this forum. I don’t believe everything that was fed to me anymore, and now, I question everything. As soon as I took a critical look at my religion, it failed so quick, you don’t even know. I don’t think I’ll ever have such a drastic transformation in my life ever again. Being a devout believer one time, then after starting some unbiased research, minutes later, i completely dropped the religion for good.

Who brokered the deal? I guess I was the broker, which means I never got it in writing, so I’m safe! But, I’ll let him have my soul still, I have no use for it.

Thanks for your openness and honesty. Don't belittle your intelligence. We all can't be that smart (I'm one of them). Kind of irks me when it gets trotted out here.

So........ you did this all on your own? No Suggestion from others?

The sick comment was not directed at you but those around you that may have put you up to it.