So most atheist dwell in the "prove it to me" phase and that's okay. It's okay to have Ocam's razor on hand so as not to fly uncontrolably toward delusion. Buhdda would not want that and so we should not. Still some of us cling to the idea that human evolution is not at an end. More, that we can evolve ourselves with enough will and practice. May be I am missing the main point of your introduction but Sometimes I do what I feel is appropriate. My logic and reason are my guide but not always my restrictions. Be always who you are at the moment you are and nothing else.
welcome brother.
welcome brother.