When I was a Christian I was very interested in apologetics. I was also a Creationist. Long story short, the more I researched for credible evidence for my beliefs to give to non-believers the less of it I found. The most important thing for me has always been to know truth, whatever it may be, which meant that I could no longer deny the truth which the evidence was pointing to, that there is no god.
"The tragedy is that every brain cell devoted to belief in the supernatural is a brain cell one cannot use to make life richer or easier or happier."
~Kay Nolte
~Kay Nolte