My pathetic whining about how I want a relationship

[rexbeccarox]

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I tried going to this really fucked up nasty punk bar, which was right next to a gay bar, which had people literally exchanging drugs, pan handlers at the bar stools, musicians talking about doing drugs at the concert on stage, I get warned about fights and shootings down there, plus gang violence and the obvious drug deals and crack heads outside the bar. So I have stopped going down there, lol. I never talked to a single person the 7 times I went to that bar.

The other place I could go is this retro arcade bar, but I don't drink so what's the point? I'd just stand around playing arcade games, not talking to anyone like the last two times I went there. I want some place where there's people who are really cool, who aren't in a dangerous as fuck neighborhood that I have to ride to on my bike in the middle of the night and fear for my life.

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Other than that I fucking hate volunteering. It drains me.

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I don't get it. What's so hard about getting into a relationship? It's as easy as breathing.

ahahaha omg you have no idea how stupid you sound.

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I'm trying to remember the last time I happened upon anyone as unself-aware.

I'm really not trying to be mean or anything, dude. In fact, I'm promising right now I will try my absolute hardest not to come across as mean to you from now on... please keep that in mind when you read the next bit, ok?

You really need to learn some stuff about yourself before getting into a relationship. There are things about the way you communicate that are really kind of awful, and if you communicate in any way IRL as you do here, you're not going to get past date one with too many people.

Wouldn't a more pleasant thing to say to someone who hasn't really said anything particularly condescending (and who's participating in a thread you made asking for input) "hahaha omg you must be such a stud "? That way, you're being cheeky, but not rude, and it won't shut down the flow of conversation. Have you noticed that people around here either mostly take issue with you or ignore you? From your posts around here, it seems like that's what happens with you in other parts of the web and IRL.

I'm not sure, exactly, how one becomes more self-aware (I've been working on it myself lately, and it seems to be one of those things everyone does differently), but until it happens, I think you're going to hit a lot of walls.

It's jm2c, but I only mean the best.