My pathetic whining about how I want a relationship

[DespondentFishdeathMasochismo]

I wish there was something I could do that I would enjoy. I just don't want to do something where I get mixed up with a bunch of people outside my age group. It fucking sucked when I signed up for a drawing class at my local art center, it was all old people. I quit within like one day. I have been trying to find something that I would enjoy doing for such a long time, I don't know what I could possibly do that I would enjoy myself in. I hate standing around alone at concerts, I fucking despise being at school, there just doesn't seem to be a way to communicate with anyone. It pisses me off how in our culture, nothing is really expected of you to have meaningful relations with those who live around you. It's so lonely. My parents pay for an apartment for me, I dread the prospect of going back to school because it's fucking torture in there, I also hate the prospect of getting a job because I would still be unhappy.

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Oh, and bring friends with you, especially if you're going to keep trying bars and concerts. People seem more socially capable if they're in a group with other people.

I don't even know a single person's phone number in my area. That's not an option.