My pathetic whining about how I want a relationship

[dyresand]

That is your problem right there, 99% interactions online? That just means you are afraid of real life scenarios. You need to fight that fear yourself, others cannot help you. But as I said, just put yourself in social situations more often, and try to join group conversations.  For example, if I am out on a run and come across a group of people chatting, if they were discussing something within my scope of knowledge, I'd throw in my two cents. That'd be a quick way to get into a conversation and make some acquaintances.

I don't know how to put myself in "real life scenarios". I walk outside all the time, like I've said. I wish that there were situations that involved sitting down and having real talks with people. That's really all I do online, in person you have to get past a million barriers of small talk before that happens. You say put myself in social situations, you have no idea that there's literally no way I can do that. Join a group conversation? Where on earth do you think I can just walk up to a group of people and start talking? I feel uncomfortable at shows, if you did that to someone in a group table at a cafe or something they're with their friends. Just walking around on the street no one is saying anything.

These social interactions that everyone thinks are so easy, it's so fucking aggravating. Why is that stuff so illusive? Can you explain that to me, before I have to hear the "if you're tired of being on the internet, just get off the internet and find someone to talk to" again. Do you have any idea how many times I've heard that? It's not frustrating, it's fucking painful and tearing apart my fucking psyche, trying to understand just why the fuck people think it's that simple. It's not. Do you understand what I am fucking telling you? It is unequivocally NOT.

Unless you want a long distance date i am free