The "I have a confession thread"

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Raphiel: I'm sorry to hear that It's a big thing that you are taking the time to reflect about yourself. Some people just assume they must be perfect and so they don't need to.

We're all on a journey, and we all change, to some degree. We learn about ourselves, and those reflective enough try to improve themselves. Realistically, everyone has room for improvement.

If you're having extreme mood swings within a day, that does suggest some sort of issue, although I couldn't possibly guess what. It sounds like you've had a bad run with professionals. I'd say you should keep trying until you find one that "gets it". Some are just lousy, it's a sad fact. I've seen more lousy ones than good, and I've seen a lot. But don't let them stop you seeking more help.

If you like, you could write down several examples of what you have done that is supposedly manipulative, and we could give our impressions. You're welcome to PM me if you don't want to spill it on the forum, but would like to tell someone. I've been accused of being things before which I didn't agree with, and still don't agree with upon reflection. So maybe she is right, maybe not, or more likely a mixture of both, to a greater or lesser degree. These things are subjective, after all.