(January 30, 2016 at 6:52 pm)Jörmungandr Wrote: When I was still psychotic, I believed that my death would free me to return to the home dimension which I had left some time ago. I viewed this as an extremely good thing. Thus I was chronically suicidal for 12 years, during which time I made three attempts on my life. When people ask me how I lost my fingers, I tell them of how I went outside in 20 F below weather and took a bunch of sleeping pills. The most common reaction is that I must have been really depressed. But I wasn't. I tried to kill myself to return to my home dimension. I believed that by dying I would be freeing myself. So yes, if you truly believe, the question as to what's stopping you is a very real one. Yes, instinct will pull us away from trying to harm ourselves. But if you truly believe, then why do you not at the very least 'want' to die? Why do you not want to die like I did?
Thanks for sharing your story, and I'm glad you are still here to interact with. I've been there myself, and also glad I'm still here. There is so much to experience in life. When I was younger I had basically planned to be dead by 21, but decided it wasn't the best solution, so here I am at 34 and still kind of surprised to exist.
