(March 4, 2011 at 9:41 pm)Cynical8 Wrote: If anyone has any advice or thoughts or hopefully some sort of solution to my problem, I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks.
I don't know your age, but I had the same experience that you're having when in my mid 30s. I was never sure if it was the thoughts of my death that made me depressed or whether I though about my death because I was already depressed.
Relaxation/meditation were helpful and I managed to put the fear of death into the back of my mind and the fear gradually lessened.
I take a lot of solace in the fact that every life form on Earth eventually dies and in doing so provides sustenance for other life forms. We therefore live on, in a way, as part of another life form, as does every life form when it dies. Life on Earth is a wonderful thing(for me at least!), and I'm more than happy to be part of it and to feel that my death will serve a purpose in keeping other life forms alive until it then becomes their turn to die.
This is the cycle on Planet earth. We can't avoid it, but can learn to embrace it, that we have been a part of it.
Your fear is quite common, you're not alone and this is obviously why ancient people invented the fear suppressor of life after death. It gives people a modicum of comfort to think they will continue to live in some form after they die and perhaps re-unite with loved ones. Religions thrive on it!
Keep yourself busy, trying meditation and every time you get the thought, try pushing it to the back of your mind. There are surely more important things in your life than thoughts of your death. If the fear persists then perhaps a visit to your doctor my be called for. There may be underlying causes for the depression that brings about thoughts of your death and not the fear of your death that brings about the depression.
There are many intelligent Christians, no doubt, but an "intellectual Christian", is surely an oxymoron.
