To kill a mocking depression

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I read your post, I read the entire thread. I don't understand.

I liked your post. I thought it was interesting and I really was able to visualize the picture you painted. I like your writing style, I think is what I'm trying to say. You are vivid but not verbose. 

But why are you upset at ordinary things? I don't suffer from or understand depression. I don't know if it helps or hurts to explain it. I won't understand if you don't want to explain it. But I'll respect that you don't and won't ask again.

Your's truly, 

GB.

Well, hello.
I'm not upset at ordinary things. My deppression has been ongoing since I was a child and it's a combination of brain chemicals, genetics, and actual life altering events that I experienced which are the culprits. This wasn't about ordinary things making me upset. It was about me living life, doing ordinary things, even though depression is there. I could cuddle up and cry myself a river alone at home every day, or go and live like ordinary humans do, even when I'm in crisis. I'm not always in crisis, though. I have good days. :

So, for you, it's like a miasma that is always present then? So even if I took you to the movies and we were both super psyched about the flick, you'd still have that baseline miasma? When I'm starting from a "life is cool" base line? Sorry to boil it down. Just trying to understand it.