I hate Church and still feel obligated to go

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I understand that. When someone is so heavily invested, it can be a lot to lose. Sadly, losing friends over it may be a reality also. Some people only like others because they share beliefs. Not friends I would value, but there you go.

As you touched on, whether Christianity is "true" or not isn't the issue. The issue is whether you want anything to do with the religion at all. Personally, I don't give a rat's ass how much of it is true. The whole thing is rotten through with immorality from start to finish, and any good that comes out of it is incidental and could have been accomplished better and with less bullshit in other ways.

So to me, it's more a case of "Why do you worship this disgusting evil God?" rather than "Why do you believe this God is real?"