My background is secular family (abusive one), had a number of spiritual encounters as a child, went to church was nothing like what I thought it would be (I expected people to be loving - but then I was a needy kid), fluttered in and out of the church through high school and university, helped set up and pastor a home church, got married, had kids, went to bible college to become a missionary and left half way through as I didnt feel right about telling others how to live their lives and also decided to explore issues with my sexuality.
Needless to say the church, ex wife were ruthless in their response - long story - will make a book one day! Still love and adore my kids and they me. However the reason why I spill my guts (a little) is that despite the rages of the church I still feel very very loved by God. Are my emotions because of what I ate for breakfast, maybe. But then maybe they are real - well they are to me. I find Christ inspirational I find the church appalling. Spiritually I am alive, the way I look at society is like a jigsaw - we are all different bits but when we are true to ourselves we make an amazing picture. So I enjoy my friends regardless of their religious or non religious position - they all contribute.
How does any of this prove God. Well I dont think truth can be absolute to man (and I use that to mean mankind) because man isnt absolute. How can a finite being comprehend the infinite? Is me jumping up and down screaming Im right going to prove anything? - no. But if what I feel is right for me now then isnt that enough. Surely the world shouldnt be full of cookie cutter humans - isnt it our diversity that enriches us rather than our sameness.
Also what about quantum physics - as Ive been reading there is proof for 10 dimensions. Could spirituality not exist in a number of those dimensions - the book of Enoch talks about this (not in all Bibles). Could these dimensions explain the unexplainable in my life? Sometimes things happen that arnt rational - I somehow know theres a parking space 1/3 of the way down the next street before I get there etc - doesnt always work but the times it does I think hmmmm
If you dont want to believe in God having the proof wont make you will it?
Needless to say the church, ex wife were ruthless in their response - long story - will make a book one day! Still love and adore my kids and they me. However the reason why I spill my guts (a little) is that despite the rages of the church I still feel very very loved by God. Are my emotions because of what I ate for breakfast, maybe. But then maybe they are real - well they are to me. I find Christ inspirational I find the church appalling. Spiritually I am alive, the way I look at society is like a jigsaw - we are all different bits but when we are true to ourselves we make an amazing picture. So I enjoy my friends regardless of their religious or non religious position - they all contribute.
How does any of this prove God. Well I dont think truth can be absolute to man (and I use that to mean mankind) because man isnt absolute. How can a finite being comprehend the infinite? Is me jumping up and down screaming Im right going to prove anything? - no. But if what I feel is right for me now then isnt that enough. Surely the world shouldnt be full of cookie cutter humans - isnt it our diversity that enriches us rather than our sameness.
Also what about quantum physics - as Ive been reading there is proof for 10 dimensions. Could spirituality not exist in a number of those dimensions - the book of Enoch talks about this (not in all Bibles). Could these dimensions explain the unexplainable in my life? Sometimes things happen that arnt rational - I somehow know theres a parking space 1/3 of the way down the next street before I get there etc - doesnt always work but the times it does I think hmmmm
If you dont want to believe in God having the proof wont make you will it?
