If it will help you to get through depression, suicidal thoughts and life to be a non-atheist or spiritual then do it. Don't think for a moment that atheists have some special insight on living a serene and successful life, we don't. At least I don't. Some of the most content people I have known have been theists. I don't understand them and don't know how or why but they are content.
Really hope you didn't hear your dad in your head while reading this.
Really hope you didn't hear your dad in your head while reading this.
Being told you're delusional does not necessarily mean you're mental.