I prayed the most as a child. As a child I experienced the most tragedy.
As a teen, I begged the god for forgiveness for accusing him of not protecting me when I asked. I said I'd trust him no matter what. Boom. Tragedy struck again, but this time it came along with humiliation that I never imagined in my worst nightmares. When I matured and left the faith, bad things still happened. I won't lie and say the troubles ended when I left religion. You know what I do believe with every broken piece of me? SHIT HAPPENS. It just does. It can be the best thing to ever happen to us, or it can really test our sanity. Shit happens to believers and atheists alike. Ignoring reason for faith will not fix everything. It just makes us lazy. You don't hold on to atheism. You learn to make soil with the shit life throws at you and you plant a lemon tree.
Sorry it hurts. Thank you for sharing. Hope it gets better for you.
As a teen, I begged the god for forgiveness for accusing him of not protecting me when I asked. I said I'd trust him no matter what. Boom. Tragedy struck again, but this time it came along with humiliation that I never imagined in my worst nightmares. When I matured and left the faith, bad things still happened. I won't lie and say the troubles ended when I left religion. You know what I do believe with every broken piece of me? SHIT HAPPENS. It just does. It can be the best thing to ever happen to us, or it can really test our sanity. Shit happens to believers and atheists alike. Ignoring reason for faith will not fix everything. It just makes us lazy. You don't hold on to atheism. You learn to make soil with the shit life throws at you and you plant a lemon tree.
Sorry it hurts. Thank you for sharing. Hope it gets better for you.
"Hipster is what happens when young hot people do what old ladies do." -Exian
