(July 6, 2016 at 12:13 am)Aractus Wrote: Although my present personality is perfect in every way, it might surprise you to find out that once upon a time it wasn't. And that was partly because of negative influences on me as an adolescent had rubbed off as well. I think you have a few things to deal with here, probably getting the 'selfishness factor' in check to begin with. But you really need to identify the relationships you have between yourself and others - including with your parents and the church. It sounds as if some of those are toxic for both you and others. Excommunication may be something you need to worry about as well. If you start by being honest with yourself you will be able to start making the progress you need.
Personal change is not an easy thing for many people, so you'll need to work out how to go about it in a way that's right for you.
Fortunately, I've resigned so there is no chance of excomm.
And...you are absolutely right. Now that I am done running away from that "dreadful truth" which is inherently mine and have come down to accept what was, what is, and what will never be I feel as if I just wander off in my books, go to work, and go to school in the most introverted, passive way I might earn my way through this awkwardness. I guess I have only just started on the whole "to thine own self be true" thing. Thank you very much for your advice.
"Just call me Bruce Wayne. I'd rather be Batman."
