Dreams

[Whateverist]

I'm not at all interested in lucid dreams but very much interested in what is given in dreams that is not my doing. I don't often recall dreams but I've had a few epic ones, often recurring. The earliest of these would have been when I was 7 or younger because I remember where we lived when I had it. In it there is a pyramid with a path/ramp climbing up around the outside. I'm going up the ramp amid a crowd of people. At the top I see a monstrously large green fish with a human face and menacing expression. Everyone is afraid of the fish, bowing to it and quick to do its bidding. When I get to the top I slice the face of with a knife. (How that works logistically is a mystery.) But when the face comes off there is a torrent of blood pours out making it hard not to be swept away. I remember feeling relieved.

Analysis: I feel like the fish represented authority misused. I'm told that before I started school I spoke so fast that people had a hard time understanding what I said. Constantly being asked to repeat myself made me mad and I would have tantrums where I'd kick people or run around the house unmaking beds and throwing things around. (I have no recollection of this aside from having been told it.) Of course the fish is a symbol of Christianity. At that time I very much believed in God, at least the one of my imagination. So I have thought the dream might have presaged my soon to follow atheism. Purely speculation of course. There are no authoritative interpretations dreams. If there were, I'd cut their face off. =)