Body shaming, and "My Big Fat Fabulous Life"

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As I said, I battle being too skinny.  Not because of anorexia or any other eating disorder, thank heavens, but I do understand what it is like to battle with your weight.  Some people laugh that off, or even get snarky or angry with me.  
"Oh, poor YOU, too skinny and can't keep weight on, whaaa." <-----this hurts!
But that seems a much more accepted behavior than the exact same kind of dismissive or shaming attitude towards bigger people.

I used to be too skinny. I used to be UK dress size 8, which is equivalent of US dress size 6. I'm also 5'10" (1.8m).

This was when I was depressed and I just wouldn't bother eating. Then I took up Thai boxing, which gave me an appetite and a zest for living again. Well, sort of, but more than I had before.

I was really happy with my body when I went up to Size 10 (US size 8) but now have gone a little too far (UK size 12). I wouldn't ever want to go back to Size 8. My rib cages stuck out as much as my breasts and my shoulder blades really were like blades. I'm not depressed any more, just perpetually bored. I also feel hungry quite often and don't get the chance to do the exercise I want. When I was cycling 22km a day to and from work on a dirt track alongside a river it was ideal. Unfortunately I just don't have the time or opportunity to build exercise into my daily routine and that really annoys me.

I used to drink a lot more water than I do now. I don't know why I stopped. I sometimes wonder if giving up caffeine and salt has allowed me to put weight on. Caffeine makes me very nervous and I need to know that I am exhausted enough to drink a coffee in the morning. Even then I will be fidgeting all day long and hyper active. And cutting down on my salt has meant that I don't feel as thirsty which means I drink less and have less water bloating out my stomach making me feel full all the time.