Join a support group (anxiety/self esteem/?), with women, sounds like you could use it. You'll have something in common with them that they can understand. Start with casual friendship. Don't creep on the first outing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tTN-CVQuBR8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tTN-CVQuBR8
Being told you're delusional does not necessarily mean you're mental.