Frankly, I find understanding through faith to be in a large part about timing. Perhaps you had never had God reveal anything to you as you are supposing. Perhaps the person you were speaking to about these questions was using a logical answer as opposed to really helping you understand it in your heart and mind. Perhaps it just isn't your time to believe. I can't fault you for not believing without any evidence, as I don't fault a lot of atheists on here for their belief. As I do see evidence for me though, hopefully you can see where I see that as a denial of evidence. I can understand that you personally see no evidence for God, but are/were you looking? NVM, don't answer that. This isn't the time or place for that. Happy posting, I'm sorry you're having problems with your family. If you'd like an "inside opinion" feel free to ask.
"There ought to be a term that would designate those who actually follow the teachings of Jesus, since the word 'Christian' has been largely divorced from those teachings, and so polluted by fundamentalists that it has come to connote their polar opposite: intolerance, vindictive hatred, and bigotry." -- Philip Stater, Huffington Post
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