Feeling inferior to pretty women (or women I like)

[Banjo]

Yes, so what? I know many of you will call me a faggot or whatever. Idgf

I am a 21 year old male who has never kissed a girl or anything.  I often live off platonic loves. Liking a girl who I dont even know for years, and not being able to tolerate her presence because I start trembling, sweating, stuttering, cant think clearly, and feel like my legs have a 1000 KG ball attached to them (heavy). I often feel inferior to women who are pretty (in a specific way), or to the girl I like. Recently I even feel anger because is something I can barely control. Even when I read manga, or watch TV, etc. If there is a pretty female character, I almost immediatly feel annoyed by her. 

Take into account, though, that I am not shy in general. I speak well in public, and I can speak to anyone including women. EXCEPT, the girl I like. She is the only one who breaks me. 

Has anyone ever felt the same? It is like a love-hate sensation. You like her, and the same time you hate her.

Okay, I have had a long weekend, 12 gigs or something.

Here's the deal. Women like men and sex as much as men like women and sex.

My career was as a touring musician. I likely slept with X amount of women.

It is like anything else. It takes practice and the strength to ignore rejection. It matters not. Nobody is attractive to everyone else.

I lost my virginity at nine. 

I would guess you are placing women on a pedestal. Don't. They are human just as you are.