Victim Blaming?
October 1, 2016 at 4:05 pm
(This post was last modified: October 1, 2016 at 5:25 pm by LadyForCamus.)
(October 1, 2016 at 3:40 am)Rhythm Wrote: How has that been? As in, how abrupt was the sea change in perception any time a life lesson had to slap you properly in the face due to your advantaged upbringing? What does that -feel- like?
It feels shameful and embarrassing every time. It took a few (too many) nasty lessons for the 'sea change' to stick; for me to accept the reality that love and protection in childhood doesn't equal a charmed life, and that I can't just blindly trust the world to make sure I'm always okay regardless of my choices. It's embarrassing frankly, to realize you're still living life with that attitude in your 20's. And, because I think knew deep down exactly what I was doing, and KEPT doing it until something finally bit me in the ass.
The incident I mentioned in this thread is a perfect example of the way I floated through my life as only a passive participant most of the time without ever meaningfully considering that my decisions can have actual, harmful consequences. Pathetic for an adult woman to have to admit such a thing. There is an expected degree of shame that comes along with sexual assault by its nature, and then there's the shame and self-loathing that came when I had to look myself in the mirror and ask, "why do I keep behaving like the universe thinks I'm special?"
Nay_Sayer: “Nothing is impossible if you dream big enough, or in this case, nothing is impossible if you use a barrel of KY Jelly and a miniature horse.”
Wiser words were never spoken.
Wiser words were never spoken.
