Why would a perfect being make an imperfect world?

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You can look up my posts to see how "dishonest" I am, bitch.  In a conversation not that long ago the discussion had ended and I brought it back just to add information which did not help my position so that I didn't leave any possible dishonesty hanging out there on my part.  I've shown my colors here and I've gone out of my way to weaken my own position just to make sure that I wasn't misleading anyone.  So pretend to know all you want.  Just look up my posts and you'll see whether I value truth or winning more.

And I did misspeak about something.  The ADA does not apply here.  It covers only employment.  However, a medical diagnosis is one of THREE ways to qualify for protection under the ADA, so you also didn't know what the fuck you've been arguing about.

And yeah, I threw a fit.  I was pissed.  You asked for personal medical information, something you had no business asking.  It was rude and incredibly disrespectful.  It was no different than asking someone in a wheelchair to prove they really couldn't walk.

As I said, I really don't give a fuck what you think of me.  Think whatever you like.  I stand behind what I said and my record here speaks for itself, if you care to check my history.  In case you're interested, and I'm sure you're not because you're more interested in winning an argument than any facts, here is a little bit of that history.

My real entrance onto this forum starts with a post in the Introduction section that says something along the lines of, "I'm not new here, apparently" and goes on to say that I have no memory of signing up, I think it was, about 2 years prior, nor any of the posts I had clearly made.  I have a bad memory.  This has been established from the beginning.  I am telling you it is very bad, to the point where it scares me sometimes, where I have a real fear of one day not recognizing my loved ones.  Accept that or don't.  That is the truth.

To see how very dishonest I am you just have to look into this thread where I posted requested information (a reasonable request, I might add), which eroded my position, AFTER the conversation was over, just so that I wouldn't "leave the conversation with a potentially misleading or deceptive statement out there on my part."  Yeah, I'm a real dishonest fuck all right.  You got the hell out of me there.

Here's what happened, from my perspective.  You called me a liar.  You suggested that my problem was not a disability, not disabling, no big deal.  You pretended to know more about it than I did.  You stated that I was looking for pity or making excuses.  Why, oh, why did I fly off the handle like I did?  It's quite the mystery.  You were a pompous ass about it, breaking into a conversation which had nothing to do with you just to point out that you thought I was a liar.  Because me saying I had a disability offended you unless and until I proved to you that I do?  Do you SERIOUSLY not see what an offensive prick you were about it?

I can only guess that you don't think my particular issue should be labeled a "disability".  Well, it is.  Look it up yourself.  Is it disabling enough at this point to seek government aid or legal protection based on that disability?  I doubt it.  I'm still able to work so I've never tried to get anything from anyone for it.  But just because I'm not too disabled to work does not mean I do not have a disability and, if you believe my memory is very bad, worse than is normal, then all you have to do is a little research to see that very much IS a disability.  I think the issue here is that you don't respect it as such because it's not one you can see.  You think I'm trying to get something or some shit, and I don't seem disabled to you, so I must not be.  Well, you're not disabled once you've asked for something and gotten it.  You're disabled once you have a disability.  There are levels.  Some qualify you for some benefits and protections, some do not.  A disability is what it is regardless its severity.

So yeah, I went off.  You were incredibly insensitive and disrespectful.  You were offended that I MIGHT not have a disability, so in response you were incredibly offensive to someone who MIGHT have a disability.  So after I said that I had been getting shit about it my whole life and it was really starting to wear on me, guess what, you give me shit about it.  It was a dick move and I am legitimately afraid of what my future holds, so yeah, I'm a little sensitive about it, as I said RIGHT before you piled on, called me a liar, said that I was an attention seeker, etc.  I don't want your pity.  A little human decency would be nice, though.

I didn't say all your posts were dishonest, just the post about being disabled and then siting ADA and some other entity (maybe DSS?). 

I accept your misspeaking about the ADA. I think I asked for a medical diagnosis and did not directly tie that to the ADA. I could be wrong, not going back to look.

Yes, it is different from seeing a person in a wheelchair. The wheelchair (any assistance device) provides a visual conformation. It also indicates that they have sought out assistance for their condition. That can't be done on the internet. That's why I asked for information. 

The "I'm not new here apparently" proves nothing. I've forgot more sites where I've joined/had a login than I care to admit. I'm not blaming a bad memory but a selective memory. We all have that. You stopped participating, the memory faded. Over 2 years. That is not unique or for most people even a concern. I will concede that it is possibly an indicator. 

If it scares you so much, have you sought out professional help or assistance? This is along the line of my original query. If you have not, then I have to question why not if your memory is so troubling and disabling as you say.  

I didn't call you a liar (until my last post) but questioned your "disability" claim as you seemed to play the disability card in defense of a post. You neglected to support your claim and went on to attack the question. That is a tell.

Believe it or not I don't need to look anything up. I received plenty of mental health education in graduate school and continue to educate myself on a weekly/monthly basis. Although no longer practicing/working, that was part of my career and I keep up. I think I've spent a lot more time around people with mental disabilities in my life than you. 

Again, self identifying as disabled does not cut it. If it did, SSDI/insurance companies would be bankrupt. It is a determination made by "non self" entities in our society (SSDI, employers, doctors, assistance providers, insurance companies, .......). I don't doubt that you feel that you have an issue with your memory. I do question if your issue/condition rises to the level to be considered a disability by someone other than you. 

Now your claiming you "might" have a disability. That was not your initial claim. I might also. I've smoked for 40+ years, I might have cancer or emphysema. I'm an alcoholic so I might have liver failure. I have a trashed out left knee and lower back so that might be a disability. Do I claim one for any of those conditions, no.

If you don't want to be questioned, don't play the "I have a disability" card. Three posts/rants (maybe more) claiming "disability" in light of no support for the claim, in my book is offensive to the disabled and qualifies as dishonest. 

I still question your motives.