(March 5, 2017 at 2:25 am)Sterben Wrote: I'm turning thirty soon and I'm really bothered by fact I'm not as young as I once was. I'll elaborate more on why it's bothering me.
over the past I would say eleven years, I've mostly used the internet for my personal socialization. I do talk with others at work, but I never expose my true self; only a small portion is ever is ever shown. Even now, the whole self is never shown; it's out of fear, this fear has granted me comfort and has imprisoned my mentally. I shut myself out of the real world as much I can. The anxiety is really building up and I'm starting to self isolate from the world even more. All I'm starting to see is doors closing and I don't know how to manage this midlife crisis any more.
Socializing is a big spectrum. Are you just terrified of being yourself around everyone? What were you like before the last 11 years?
I can't really talk about how to cure social anxiety because I have it. But I don't really see it as much of a problem, I don't go out to nightclubs, pubs or anything. I've got some friends I met through music who I still keep in touch with and a few female friends.
I openly tell the people in work what I'm like. I got invited to a wedding in work and I told them both you know how much an anti social twat I am so it's likely I won't go.
The biggest thing that changed how I socialized probably was through slow progress of talking online, meeting up with women online. Having disasterous awful meetings, finding various people who I loved talking to even on the phone which I used to hate. Meeting some amazing people, meeting even better people, getting more confident and progressing.
To cut a long story short I took the long and grinding approach. You said it's like you're in a prison, well how I got out is by digging out with a spoon. Not a big wooden stiring spoon either, I'm talking about a tiny teaspoon.
And I'm still socially awkward as fuck, but it's taken me this long to get to a place that I think is at least acceptable. I'm not living in a hole as a hermit collecting bottles of my own urine but I'm hardly a glamerous socialite either.
But I have to clarify I don't know what kind of social anxiety you have. A lot of men with social anxiety I imagine cure it by getting married so they don't have to socialize with lots of women, just the one who they get to know over time. And they watch sports so they can definitely have something to talk about and socialize with other men about, life solved.
Are you ready for the fire? We are firemen. WE ARE FIREMEN! The heat doesn’t bother us. We live in the heat. We train in the heat. It tells us that we’re ready, we’re at home, we’re where we’re supposed to be. Flames don’t intimidate us. What do we do? We control the flame. We control them. We move the flames where we want to. And then we extinguish them.
Impersonation is treason.
