Advice on a personal matter

[Aoi Magi]

A mid-life crisis at 30? bahahahahaha

You seem to have a bit of social anxiety and that's quite common. Just keep putting yourself in social situations and you'll soon get comfortable with it. I myself am a huge introvert and so I have a very small friend circle, I too have problems trusting people, but it's not like I have to trust someone with my life if I just plan on having a little chat, right? I'd suggest find some friends, join a club where you can find people with similar interests, heck you can even see if anyone from here lives near you for a quick meetup, from there move on to making acquaintances with their friends and slowly grow your social circle. Like everything else, it gets easier with the effort you put in.