What self-subsists, maximum or minimal existence?

[Astreja]

My question to you, when you think of self-subsistence, independent existence, where do you place your bets? If neutral why neutral?

I'm betting on the small rather than the large.  Literally everything I know of is composed of matter/energy, and whatever infinitesimal substance comprises them is what must therefore be at the root of all that exists.

And what you know about yourself, your own self, seeing it exists, doesn't that tell you minimum existence cannot make the fabric of existence but we are connected to something higher?

Not at all.  I believe that the "self" is an illusion, a property of the physical brain, and simply ceases to exist when the brain dies.