How did u become an atheist?

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I was born an atheist like everybody duh. My mother was on her own with parenting me for quite a while (my biological father had a stroke in '82, and died in '90. Agent Orange.). So, I was sent off first to a babysitting family that attended a Christian church that met in a YMCA. No clue what denomination, or whether YMCA is a denomination. But a few years later, they were fired, because to my mother, I kept coming home with weird ideas (she was raised Episcopalian. Now she just sees "God" in a colorful sunset, a child's laugh, a smile of an old man, etc). 

So, at some point past that, I was hooked up with a babysitter who happpened to be Unitarian Universalist. I LOVED church thenceforth, for about 13 years. Toward the end of that time, though, I think my politics started shifting rightward a bit, and the UU church gradually no longer felt comfortable. In 2006, 21 years after becoming a UU in the first place, my father and I went to Pizza Hut on a snowy Pennsylvania day. After a conversation over dinner, I suddenly understood nothingness, and admitted to myself that I do not believe, and there is no shame in that. Church is not for me.