(July 8, 2017 at 3:00 pm)*Deidre* Wrote:(July 8, 2017 at 2:29 pm)Succubus Wrote: Deidre, I'm confused. If atheism is a natural conclusion then presumably for you to arrive at your present position you must be using a more potent natural conclusion. What happened?
Well, when I look back over the past five years of going from belief to disbelief to belief (leaving out a lot of details of course) I would say that emotionally, I wasn't "comfortable" as an atheist and that struggle between my mind and emotions started when my grandmother became ill a few years ago and then passed away. Maybe the main delineating line between belief and lack of belief comes in the form of wanting (or needing) to believe vs. being comfortable with the idea that no god exists. My mind and heart never "agreed" when I was an atheist. :/
May I just say how appropriately humble you are regarding your faith. It sounds like you could slide right back into disbelief if the emotional grounds for your discomfort are ever resolved. We all have to trust our selves and our process. You exemplify this.
