(January 13, 2018 at 7:49 pm)Catholic_Lady Wrote: MK, if you were in 3rd grade, you need to go easier on yourself. You were just a kid. Doesn't mean what you did wasn't wrong, but give yourself some slack. You were, what, 9 years old? Your culpability is greatly lessened by the fact that you were a young child.
There is no just a kid, even when we are in mother's wombs, we are being shaped by God, that is our spiritual image is being shaped, what the soul is and what the human is, we can't decide ourselves.
There is a reason people trust kids, because they are good by nature, but I early on took to mischief and chose evil from the start. It explains a lot of what befell after, through out time, and eventually madness. Madness had to take me, there are sins that break barriers and there are sins that bring down tribulations and that are sins that change favors and there are sins that prevent prayers from being answered, and it makes sense now. All of what I faced in my life makes sense now, why the Devils wanted me to join their forces, why sorcerers always call me to join the legion of Jinn and humans, is cause my heart was dark, and there came a time, where I was so close to joining them.
And for the leaders and guides to let go of barriers meant I was perpetual in mischief. It is true I never did anything again that dark in my life, but never the less, it explains why I was what I was, and they call it ADHD maybe, I was prone with some genetics to that, but now I am sure now ADHD as a kid resulted from the dark portals I opened, and I am sure my madness was my fault in every moment, all I had to was embrace love for a moment but I could not. I was filled with darkness and hate, and could not let go, and still am cursed with the dark companion from Satan's forces that prevents me from remembering God as I ought to remember him.
