Why don't some people understand lack of belief?

[LadyForCamus]

For me, my lack of believe denotes that I am open to changing my
Mind if sufficient evidence can be presented.  I’m not closed off to the idea of God; I just have never heard an argument that wasn’t fallacious, and I’ve never been presented with any evidence.  If it happens I’ll change my mind. I am one of the few atheists here who would prefer it if god were real, so I’m
completely open-minded about it.

This is the first time I've seen this sentiment here lol. I'm curious to hear your perspective. Why would you prefer God exist?

Well, because I don’t want to ever cease to exist.  That notion cripples me. I don’t want to have a ‘last time’ that I’ll ever see my parents, or my husband, or my babies. I’d much rather believe they we’ll all be with each other forever in a loving, safe place after death.  I know I’m basically alone in this sentiment here at AF, lol.  I’m not at all ashamed to admit it though.