Do you have the courage to commit suicide in case if terminal disease?

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I knew a guy who attempted to kill himself with a pistol but aimed it wrong and just gave himself a horrendous hare lip. A few years later, he did the exhaust in a hose into his van trick with better effect. I'm not sure what was bothering him; I only knew him as someone who worked at the school I taught at, and didn't interface with him much.

Watching my brother one year younger than I waste away in hospice with only palliative care is a scene I do not care to go through with my family. Once I'm convinced I'm terminal, it'll be a Nitrogen Exit Bag for me. When I did the search, the first two websites to pop up were for suicide hot lines. I have no intention of committing said act unless I were discovered to be in the terminal phase of an excruciatingly painful ailment. I've lived through three surgeries because of a ruptured appendix, so I know what excruciating pain is like.