(May 23, 2018 at 9:00 am)robvalue Wrote: I find it strange how I'm so violent and sadistic when playing games. It's not like I'm ever repressing any violent urges in real life. I almost never have any. It does relieve general stress and frustration to beat the shit out of a load of imaginary people though.
In some ways I envy psychopaths. Having an extremely strong conscience is exhausting at times; mine goes beyond what is of any practical use. But then I don't know how exhausting it is to keep up the facade of being "normal", as most psychopaths do if they want to go unnoticed.
That's how you know you're normal, you're not erecting a facade.
People who wear masks of happiness in public, despite the inner turmoil, have at least something in common with psychopaths.
The facade or the mask is something I have never been capable of presenting, which people don't seem to understand. Why lie to the world, just to make them more comfortable? Fuck that.
