I spent a whole year meditating none stop practically because I had no computer and nothing else to do but 'think' and be aware of my OWN thinking....
I'm still meditating though because now it's habital. I am almost constantly aware of my own thoughts (I mean in comparison to before the meditation it is a BIG difference) - and I find that to be excellent because I love being aware and thinking things through...
The only problem is it's totally automatic now so if my thoughts are bugging me I can't get them to go away.
I guess it's because forcing yourself OUT of being so self-aware is no less difficult than forcing yourself INTO being more self-aware when you're NOT very self aware :S
And I wouldn't want to anyway. Just means sometimes the voice in my head, when it nags a lot - I tend to be aware of it :S
But if I wasn't then I'd probably be worrying without realizing it - as I have in the past before meditation and before my awareness is increased. And TBH I am also well-aware that many (the majority, even vast majority I say IMHO) people do this a lot. They worry about stuff and then realize they were worrying afterwards (it's very common, even I get it rarely from time to time. But it's always mild cos I always catch it very early (now)). I'm practically always well-aware of worrying right from the beginning now - so even though I have to put up with it more OFTEN (VERY often lol) - I am actually doing it no more often I am simply aware of it more - and that often helps me stop it getting worse
IOW: I actually don't worry any MORE than before - I'm simply aware of it more so I catch my worrying earlier rather than realize my worries (sometimes ages) later.
Oh and, I enjoy intelligent discussions an awful lot too. And I am CERTAINLY a thinker!! (at least, I THINK I am lol).
EvF
I'm still meditating though because now it's habital. I am almost constantly aware of my own thoughts (I mean in comparison to before the meditation it is a BIG difference) - and I find that to be excellent because I love being aware and thinking things through...
The only problem is it's totally automatic now so if my thoughts are bugging me I can't get them to go away.
I guess it's because forcing yourself OUT of being so self-aware is no less difficult than forcing yourself INTO being more self-aware when you're NOT very self aware :S
And I wouldn't want to anyway. Just means sometimes the voice in my head, when it nags a lot - I tend to be aware of it :S
But if I wasn't then I'd probably be worrying without realizing it - as I have in the past before meditation and before my awareness is increased. And TBH I am also well-aware that many (the majority, even vast majority I say IMHO) people do this a lot. They worry about stuff and then realize they were worrying afterwards (it's very common, even I get it rarely from time to time. But it's always mild cos I always catch it very early (now)). I'm practically always well-aware of worrying right from the beginning now - so even though I have to put up with it more OFTEN (VERY often lol) - I am actually doing it no more often I am simply aware of it more - and that often helps me stop it getting worse
IOW: I actually don't worry any MORE than before - I'm simply aware of it more so I catch my worrying earlier rather than realize my worries (sometimes ages) later.
Oh and, I enjoy intelligent discussions an awful lot too. And I am CERTAINLY a thinker!! (at least, I THINK I am lol
).EvF
