Hello, New atheist having a meltdown

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I'm very sorry to hear what you've gone through. I haven't gone through this myself, but I totally appreciate how being taught all this stuff as a kid gives you something to lose in adult life.

My advice is give yourself time, and don't be hard on yourself. Your world has been turned upside down and it will take some time for things to settle again. You won't always feel the way you feel now.

Also, hold onto the fact that you've realized that the time we have in this life is unique and priceless. Some people go their whole life under the delusion of religion, treating this as nothing more than a very short warm-up for the real life. You have the chance to seize the day and make the very most out of the opportunity of life.

No one can take your memories away, and while you remember your loved ones, they are still here with us.