Hello, New atheist having a meltdown

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There is no God to comfort me, guide me, protect me, or intervene in my life. There is no Heaven. I will never see my family, friends, or pets again once they/I die. My entire schema for living has fallen apart. I feel devastated and terrified.  

Welcome aboard.  

IDK if it will help, but look at it in a different light.  You never had any of those things before - and you've made it half a century.  It was always you comforting, guiding, protecting, intervening.  With friends, family, and pets, too.  

Sounds like heaven to me.

That's exactly the thing. Religion often teaches people to give it all the credit, instead of people crediting themselves and the people around them.

To take a couple of examples: if you thought God was guiding and protecting you for all this time, that means you've actually done a great job of finding your own way, and keeping yourself safe.