Hello, New atheist having a meltdown

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I can totally understand that. Ideas about afterlives have been shown to stifle the grieving process. It's not your fault, of course. Because we think people haven't really died, we don't go through the stages we need to in order to properly move on. It seems to me that you're now finally doing that grieving, but it's extremely harsh that you're forced to do it all at once for all the people you've lost. I wish I could offer more advice for how to actually get through it, but all I can say is that the grieving process is there for a reason, and you will eventually feel better when you are the other side of it.