IF you deconverted in midlife, can you help?

[pocaracas]

And why are you not a Catholic?

Because their doctrine is contrary to Biblical scripture, not to mention they put a man in the place of God...

2 Thessalonians 2

3 Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;

4 Who opposeth and exalteth himself above all that is called God, or that is worshipped; so that he as God sitteth in the temple of God, shewing himself that he is God.

You are aware that they were the ones who compiled the books into what became the bible, right?
You are aware that all their doctrine is backed up by more than the bible, right? By tradition and by philosophy.
You are aware that the man you claim they put in place of God is, in fact, a representative, a mouthpiece... a priest, right?

Certainly, throughout the ages, some men in such a position have made themselves appear to the commoners as being in the place of God, but that was not the original intent, nor is it today's... it was just the result of a man with power.
With great power, comes great responsibility.
And not all are capable of handling that responsibility, even if their peers are convinced that they will handle it. Mistakes are made, as power corrupts.

But that doesn't mean that the doctrine is not biblical. Have you ever taken the time to read the catechism? To read some annotated version explaining why they do things the way they do?
I was once advised to read something by Leo Trese, The Faith Explained. It explains the catholic side of things quite well, I must say, if you accept the bit about that particular god actually existing.... which you clearly do.