Deconversion and some doubts

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But what exactly is theistic that you see about this view?

I consider any view of reality as teleological, possessing some sort of intrinsic goal, or aim, meaning, more like a narrative, a story, as opposed to some sort of nihilistic view, as theistic.

If the Good exists, I desire to serve, worship, submit to it, to share in it, be like it, etc.. I would see it as the way the truth, and the life.

I would see all that stands in opposition to the Good, as in a state of rebellion, broken, in need of redemption, to be whole again.

Now perhaps you disagree with this definition of theism, and believe I can hold such beliefs and not fall into either category. If so I’m okay with that, remaining undefined, because we don’t share the same understanding of terms like theism, or god.