I do believe in an after life and do not fear for my own death. I do have fears of death like most do if, they are honest about living. My fear of death is losing those I love and seeing the sorrow of the ones they leave behind. I hated losing my father even though I knew I'd see him again, even for christians who lose loved ones death takes on a perception of permanency because we are still here, in this life, and can not have that relationship of love we so desire. I personally do not look forward to the dying process, it could be a messy affair, I hope not but we are not guaranteed anything. I do look forward to what comes next and wish I had a better idea of what it's going to be like. It's good to see so many here that have good family relationships, that is one thing that makes the journey worthwhile.
God loves those who believe and those who do not and the same goes for me, you have no choice in this matter. That puts the matter of total free will to rest.
